Its 2:43 in the morning & i can't get any sleep. It's that feeling again, the feeling like something is burning inside me. I can't stand it any longer. This may or may not be the end for me. I can't bare this pain anymore. My body hurts like a million needles are being pierced into it. Wait.... no that's not right, its ain't body that's feeling the pain its the mind or the thing that we call heart. I can't think straight, I can't concentrate on a thing.... I'm loosing my temper..... I'm angry at everything, even if I don't know why?..... I have been like a mad man sometimes, sometimes I don't know what to do.... sometimes I will stay staring at nothing.... I cry sometimes, but i don't know why?.... The Day. I had many expectations in my life on that day. I didn't expect HER to say yes to me, because we were only 14 then. I can see all things that happened that day like film reel playing over and over again. My life its not in ma hands any more; its gone.... gone to her. I don't know what i'm goin' to do. I don't really know. Ohhh GOD almighty am I doing wrong, actually what am i doing. I have done daring and crazy things in my life. Things that was unbelievable, even for me itself. But this is something that is takin my breath away. Ohh i can't breath. I feel like someone or something is trying to escape or trying to get out from my body. I feel like I am trapped inside my body and the real me is trying to get out of there.
Its 4:10 now i have been writing down a lot now, but even now after writing all this down, i don't feel any better. Even now when I'm writing tears are rolling down my cheeks. I suppose i won't get out from here till i talk to her. Another day to be sad or worried. thats all for now its me
Vineeth going out there with a mask on............................
