Thanking the BIG GUY up there

There are times, when you stop and think "there is GOD". Lord almighty, who is known to us in many names ;Shiva, jesus or allah. But there are times when we feel their presence or his decision made.

Oh Lord i am thankful, for answering my prayers. I saw her, after being here for almost seven months, i saw her in the temple. Of all places, the temple... what can i say.. its all his will.

MAY B D LAST ONE

This post may be my last one.....

i was planning to write my heart out... But, thats the hardest thing to do, i guess...

I will say what i was saving up..

"Love is like the wind, you can't see it but you can feel it"

i will always love U

Vineeth Vijayan

[my life's] THE END

17-9-2010

"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Loves is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It dose not take offense and is not resentful. Love take no pleasure in others people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes."

15-06-2010

Its been almost a month, since i last wrote anything in this blog. I 've been diverted by many things. By all that time my mind has been messed up pretty badly. Sometimes i wish the things that came to my mind just go away. But memory, sometimes, is a curse. For the past few weeks i have been trying to see her every possible time i could, even if there is no way she could be at home, i go around her house to see if she is there. It has been raining for a couple of weeks. All this downpour made the days look exactly like my mind, Sad and lonely. Sometimes i 've wondered that " are all these raindrops my tears? are they the symbol of my sorrow?"

But i realized that like the rays of the sun, which makes it way though the cloudy sky, the very sight of HER face gives me the joy, satisfaction...*-/ i donno what to call that feeling that i get........ i think i will just call it LOVE . So after all this days, today i saw HER .

At her house. i only got a quick glance but it was enough. Bcoz...

My love is like the wind

U can't see it .........

But U can feel it.........

23-5-2010

Its 2:43 in the morning & i can't get any sleep. It's that feeling again, the feeling like something is burning inside me. I can't stand it any longer. This may or may not be the end for me. I can't bare this pain anymore. My body hurts like a million needles are being pierced into it. Wait.... no that's not right, its ain't body that's feeling the pain its the mind or the thing that we call heart. I can't think straight, I can't concentrate on a thing.... I'm loosing my temper..... I'm angry at everything, even if I don't know why?..... I have been like a mad man sometimes, sometimes I don't know what to do.... sometimes I will stay staring at nothing.... I cry sometimes, but i don't know why?.... The Day. I had many expectations in my life on that day. I didn't expect HER to say yes to me, because we were only 14 then. I can see all things that happened that day like film reel playing over and over again. My life its not in ma hands any more; its gone.... gone to her. I don't know what i'm goin' to do. I don't really know. Ohhh GOD almighty am I doing wrong, actually what am i doing. I have done daring and crazy things in my life. Things that was unbelievable, even for me itself. But this is something that is takin my breath away. Ohh i can't breath. I feel like someone or something is trying to escape or trying to get out from my body. I feel like I am trapped inside my body and the real me is trying to get out of there.

Its 4:10 now i have been writing down a lot now, but even now after writing all this down, i don't feel any better. Even now when I'm writing tears are rolling down my cheeks. I suppose i won't get out from here till i talk to her. Another day to be sad or worried. thats all for now its me

Vineeth going out there with a mask on............................

Life, sometimes, is like a movie. We may like the first part but not the second half...... Sometimes days are also like that. We might have a whole lot of fun till noon and our evenings.. kill us. But sometimes even in an unhappy endings there will be a ray of hope. I had one of those days today.

I was havin' a lot of fun till my friend[my best buddy] went away for his studies.... All the happiness gave way to a sad goodbye evening.. All these years he had backed me up and i feel a huge space of emptyness now. Even after all this happened i got a chance to see her after a long time.

But she won't even know.. BUT

My love

Its like the wind

" you can't see it

but, you can feel it"

Why did i love her; even when there are so many other girls in this world. U might ask, can't i find someone else. Love, can't fine somebody else. If you go searching for love, thats not love.

But, we can't decide in advance whom we are gonna love, can we???? We can't go in search of love. That love wont last. It must happen on its own. it should hit you unexpectedly. It should turn you upside down. It should always be with you. Like what happened to me when i saw her. Thats true love. that happened to me. So actually i didn't choose her. That love struck me, when i saw her. I like this pain now, it has become a part of me......